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Location: Virginia Beach, VA
Gender: Male
Born: December 28
Interests: Writing, reading, golf, Christian fellowship, Jesus Christ
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Joined: August 2013
Edward V. Beck, (Naba-man), a human being (not doing) values character above skill and integrity above smarts, and purposely curtails action and pragmatic thinking to promote being the complex being God has designed him to be. This is not to indict activity and practicality, but to ensure that the wide-angled lens of thoughtfulness takes in enough light to eradicate a negative image and fully capture the still and significant portrait of self as the self is intrinsically designed and endowed by the Creator. He'd rather praise God's works than his own. Nevertheless, he is no adrenaline junky,though he can enjoy fast activities as well as anyone, but he is more stoked by quiet, methodical and measured activity, and his adrenaline is activated and his excitement engaged more by metaphysical than physical considerations and realities. Consequently, he enjoys above all things to be in a quiet room reading, studying, praying and reflecting/meditating upon Scripture, Christian biographies, theological writings, the classics and poetry.
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Naba-man: My Christian Testimony

Though my initial salvation experience was dramatic, indelible, and life-transforming (and it took place way back in 1979 when I was a young man just several months removed from living with my parents) my subsequent walk before the Lord as a new creation was often interrupted by just as dramatic, indelible, and life-transforming failures, lapses of faith, and fidelity problems. A genetic stream of alcoholism coursed my veins when the remedy, that pure stream of Christ's blood, also began to course my circuits; today the stream is clarified and its healing virtue has secured the victory.

But before mercy triumphed over judgment, this body of death, which often overwhelmed me and dictated to me the horrors associated with its alcoholic nature, won many battles. The command to mortify the deeds of my flesh by the power of the Holy Spirit was not something I could easily do; drunkenness and debauchery, and followed hard by adulteries, greed, theft, and other sins, dominated me intermittently and sporadically throughout the early years of my Christian experience. I would binge, black out, and remain drunk for weeks and sometimes as long as a month straight; then I would repent, God would graciously take me back, and I would serve Him with vigor and sincerity for another season. In spite of my inconsistency, God fought loyally and vigorously for my soul, and I longed to develop and mature, to be faithful, stable, and established.

One day, amidst the fog of my existence, God graciously dropped a promise from the book of Hosea into my spirit (and then it grew); He spoke of healing "faithlessness," in the Amplified Version of the Bible, of "backsliding" in the King James Version, and "apostasy" in the New American Standard Bible; and each version ended their respective verse by stating that He would love me freely and turn His anger away from me (Hosea 14:4). Though I loved God more than anything, I never had the power to remain utterly faithful until one day when He promised me by His Spirit that a miracle had been wrought within my soul. Not but 5 or 6 years ago, then in my mid-forties, did His promise to me manifest and remain; He had healed my faithlessness (those backslidings and apostasies).

Alcohol faded into the background and He distinctly told me that I would never fall away again. It has proven true and solid since then, but I am humbled by my performance because I know that only He wrought this steadfastness in me (and that I can take no credit for the faithfulness I now walk in). Because He is the God of resurrection, death already has no sting with Him; though I am the chief of all sinners, and every outward sign had been one of abject failure, I overcame and won the entire victory (regardless of what many brothers and sisters in Christ thought and still think of me and my Christianity).

Almighty God never loses anything placed into His hands, and even though I failed to do many things right in this lifetime, one thing I did do right was to allow the placing of my life into those scarred, gentle, and secure hands. Only because God never loses or fails, I never lose or fail (ultimately).

August 4, 2013 at 11:48PM
    Deniz22: Amen brother!
    August 12, 2013 at 11:24PM
    Iese: Hey I fixed the daughter poem :) check it out
    August 16, 2013 at 6:01PM
    Sueellen11: Awesome testimony , praise be to GOD, I stumble and fall daily, but the greatest love of all stands by me, and raises me up, forgiving my sins blessings to you, sueellen
    August 17, 2013 at 1:05AM
    Sankey: Wonderful testimony. God still forgives even though we fail Him many times and finally we realize we had to doe to self and our own efforts at sanctification and just let Him do it all for us and in us. God Bless my friend.
    August 22, 2013 at 1:21AM
    country ranch writer: The good Lord helps those who help themselves and he thought you were worth saving.Some times we have go so far down to the bottom in order to appreciate what God has given you
    August 29, 2013 at 5:24AM
    Magyver: i cant say i have that deep a commitment...or ever will...if you have such a close relationship with him send him my way please!!
    September 25, 2013 at 4:59PM
    Sankey: AMEN Bro sorry I had not read this before. God is always faithful and he does forgive and he has forgiven all our sins past present and future.
    September 28, 2013 at 5:54AM
    Selina Stambi: Amazing, powerful testimony! PTL!! Amen.
    October 27, 2013 at 8:06PM


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