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Sick Memories

Childhood traumas

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Comment from Lovinia
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Hi Mystery Writer

So many sad tales of such cruelty no child should ever know. Yours is one, and still we cover up this kind of abuse. A terrified mother, terrified children ... what a beast your father must have been? I was lucky to have a kind but weak father, with my mother as the bully. I'm glad you reconciled; therapists always 'suggested' I remove myself from my mother's influence. I was brought up to be obedient, and my mother could use loving charm when she wanted to. So confusing, so life-debilitating for a child. I was the child who stood up to her, she 'beat' (mostly emotionally and with humiliation) almost to death. Sorry, your emotions in this excellent well written story have impacted on mine ... I guess that is high praise for the level of your work in engaging your reader. Very sad to read your notes and your concluding paragraph. I do hope this story brings some cathartic relief and the healing is swift... I know we will never forget, or completely recover. I wish you the best and my best wishes in this contest. Warm Regards - Lovinia xoxo

 Comment Written 12-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 13-Jun-2016
    Lovinia, thank you for sharing your past with me in the comments for this contest entry. Appreciate the great review comments and the lovely five-star rating. God bless and hugs, Susanne
reply by Lovinia on 16-Jun-2016
    My pleasure. You had my vote, though the winning poem is excellent and the one I tossed up with yours. You did very well in the contest, and more importantly, hopefully found some relief in disclosure. A lifetime isn't enough to get over such inhumanity, we can learn to move on. I wish you happiness. God Bless. Hugs - Lovi xoxo
reply by the author on 17-Jun-2016
    Thanks very much, Lovi, for your thoughtful reply! God bless and hugs, Susanne
Comment from foxangie123
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Wow, I could really relate to this in so many fashions. I hate that any child would have to endure such yet it was a journey to get here to pen about I guess. This is awesome. Bravo and kudos to you.

 Comment Written 12-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 13-Jun-2016
    Thank you, foxangie123, for the review and excellent rating for this work. I am only appreciative that I had the chance to reconcile with him and try to focus on all the great times we had once he sobered up! God bless and hugs, Susanne
Comment from LIJ Red
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It's hard to describe more than one incident in 100 words. Where is the line between forgiving a loved one's faults and masochism, I wonder. Excellent vent...

 Comment Written 12-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 12-Jun-2016
    LIJ Red, thank you for taking the time to review and the lovely 5-star rating you gave it! Appreciate both very much. God bless and hugs, Susanne
Comment from AnnaLinda
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Author,

Okay...I get where you are coming from. I am close to your age...hitting
the big 59 soon...Like a few weeks from now...My father also is......but,
he's still living, so I won't go there now...figuratively and literally.

I'm sorry you had a real live devil in your life...in your family posing as
a father. That is one more thing we have in common. You've written a
very compelling piece...Super honest, emotionally raw and very
relatable to me.

Well done from start to finish,
Linda

 Comment Written 11-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    Linda, thank you for the heart-felt and very kind review. I do so appreciate it so much. God bless and hugs, Susanne
Comment from MTF1955
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That was powerful! I'm glad you finally made amends with your father. You are a bigger person than me. I'm not sure I could have. God Bless and hope your life will be happy from this moment on. Mary

 Comment Written 11-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    Mary, thank you so much for your very empathetic review. I appreciate your consideration of both. Gid bless and hugs, Susanne



Comment from jusylee72
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such an honest and true story. It is amazing when we experience abuse how it affects us even as we age. I applaud your honesty. I understand your anger and I praise your writing. Here's to the next part of your life.

 Comment Written 11-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    thank you so much, juslee72, for the great review and wonderful 5-star rating on this work. I certainly do appreciate both. It was very difficult for me to write and probably harder on the reviewers. God bless and hugs, Susanne





Comment from w.j.debi
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This is heart rending. You do an excellent job of conveying the hurt, the terror, the longing and the sense of loss that living in fear bring. Excellent opening line to hook the reader. I admit that I often skip pieces with language warnings because they are often unnecessary and used for shock value instead of to convey a message. You, however, use language very well to convey feelings of frustration and anger. I had to keep reading.

What a wonderful ending that you can still love and miss someone that caused so much terror. You make an excellent point that hating someone only brings down your own self-esteem. There is wisdom, forgiveness and caring in your words. I hope you do well in the contest.

 Comment Written 11-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    It comes with age my dear. I could never have written this when he was alive. It would have breached any trust we may have built at all. God bless and hugs, Susanne
Comment from Dean Kuch
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Your post comes in at just 359 words, according to Microsoft Word, Anonymous Author, well within the 100-1,000 word limit imposed by the moderator of this contest.
No worries there.

This man gave me night terrors as a child and nightmares as an adult, even at a time when I had reconciled with him and learned that hating him only lowered my self-esteem. ... And people try and tell me that adults do not suffer from night terrors. I know damn well they do because I happen one of those who have to suffer with them ...

if you miss him, then you've somewhat forgiven him his cruelty. Hey, the only one we wind up hurting when we harbor hatred in our hearts for another is ourselves. How can WE expect to be forgiven our indiscretions if we refuse to forgive those who have wronged us?
But no one--and I do mean NO ONE!--can tell us that we have to forget.

Good luck in the contest.
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 Comment Written 11-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    Thank you dean for understanding this post so well and not giving me a judgmental review or rating. This was so hard to write and I will internally suffer the consequences of this work. God bless and hugs, Susanne
reply by Dean Kuch on 11-Jun-2016
    I don't forsee any real consequences, Susanne. It's never wrong when it comes from the heart.
    You're more than welcome.
    ~Dean
reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    And, in this life, I never will. I just had to wait till he died to get it all out, if you can understand that. God bless and hugs, susanne
reply by Dean Kuch on 12-Jun-2016
    Yes, I can.
    God bless... :)
reply by the author on 12-Jun-2016
    Amen, Dean....God bless and hugs, Susanne
Comment from P1
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very well written story and difficult to
read. i admire but cannot understand how
you say you miss such a man. i am glad you
have stayed around to tell your tale. good luck
with this

 Comment Written 11-Jun-2016


reply by the author on 11-Jun-2016
    paige won, I never thought I would speak such words or have such open feelings about our past; me a child and him a (poor) parent. But after his death, I did a lot of soul searching and really realized how he fucked up my world, my life and the possibility of me ever being normal, per se. WTF? Life does go on ....even after 60! God bless and hugs, Susanne